“When
last did you see your period?” Dr.Tosin asked me
“Last
month”, I replied. I am lying but I’m not about to admit it for all the things
in China.
“The
information I have here tells me that January was the last time you saw your
period”
“No!
I still saw my period last month but it was scanty compared to my normal flow
but it didn’t bother me until last month when I didn’t see it at all”. I’m a
medical student so I know all the things I can say to defend my point.
“I hope you are aware that this pregnancy is already 12weeks and 5days old, if we do not remove it today I’m going to have to induce you and you will have to give birth to a stillborn child”
“I
know doctor”, it’s beginning to sound scary but I’ll be strong
“Did
you take any medication of any sort with the aim of terminating the pregnancy?”
hmm…. This doctor is being thorough.
“No,
but I had malaria during the first few weeks and I took antimalarial drugs”,
I’m lying again, the reason I had to come to a doctor in the first place was
because all the oral methods I knew has been exhausted and I’m still pregnant.
“Okay
then, let’s go to the labour room. Nurse! Please give her oxytocin”, he didn’t
even wait for the nurse to appear before barking out instructions, but then
it’s not such a large hospital.
As
I’m being led to the labour room, the nurse whispers in my ear, “if you
cooperate it won’t be too painful”.
This
statement is too heavy for me to let it pass, so I ask her, “how long will this
take?”
“About
20minutes, 30minutes max”, she answered.
This
will be the worst and perhaps the last 30minutes of my life, I don’t think I
want to die without telling my story, maybe someone who reads this and knows my
mother will exactly what killed her daughter because she doesn’t even know I’m
pregnant and she thinks I’m in school at the moment